I need to be single for a while. I have lost myself. I am self conscious of every thing I do. I feel that someone is always watching waiting to criticize my actions. Don't I have the right to go out and find what makes me happy. I've been told I can be happy, but I just don't think I deserve to be so I move on in the world. I am not ready to settle down I know that for sure. I turn 21 on August 21. Will this add to the list of "adult" decisions that have been put on my to do list? I've been told I am not being myself. "That isn't like Cam" "You're not being true to yourself" What do these things mean? How can someone know how I am if I don't know that? This post is depressing. I started writing to clear my head, but now I have just mixed all these ideas up a little more. My ideas are like vacation plans, they tend to never happen in my life. Then: Sit down and talk about your problems with someone and say how you really feel. Now: Text back and forth and use loads of sarcasm so that in order to understand you must crawl out of the cave, you call your bedroom, and meet with the person face to face.
I would like to make a new friend. I miss the process of getting to know someone. I need to get out of my shell and show the world ME! Cameron Dean Moss. I need to work on not being so shy and try not to shutdown when uncomfortable. Embrace the awkwardness. I love talking and being around unique and kind of socially awkward people! I have been setting up the equipment for the school's orientations and I want to be able to just approach someone and say HI! Introduce myself to the people that I find interesting. I applied to be an Orientation Leader, but never got an interview. How do I connect when I am never given the chance?
This blog is really good about motivating me to do what I want to do! Not be pushed around by anything or anyone. Thank you blogger.
So I think a sign of a true friend is when you read their blog and realize you have already had a conversation about their post in person. I'm glad we're true friends.
ReplyDeleteTurning 21 on August 21, roller rink here we come.
Also, it's funny how you say "Embrace the awkwardness. I love talking and being around unique and kind of socially awkward people!" Welcome to the crew, we can fulfill all of those requirements.
And for the record I think you've made a breakthrough from being shy and shutting down. You chatty cathy.